First Day, Nearly Complete

Today was much harder than the first day I had in December.  I'm not sure why it felt so challenging, but it was difficult.  

I'm not really hungry, but the whiffs of food seem to seek me out and get stuck in my nose.  This morning when I got to the office for a meeting, there was a bucket of fresh bagels from Einstein's.  Now, I have resisted bagels for some time.  This morning, however, they must have been super fresh.  Sure enough, about 15 minutes later one of those attending said "wow, my bagel is still warm".  *sigh*  My office is not far from the office kitchen and mostly I smell offensive things like fish heated in the microwave, but today I distinctly smelled a few things that were intoxicating.  

I avoided the kitchen at all costs, except to make my lemonade.  2 tablespoons of fresh lemon juice, 2 tablespoons of grade b maple syrup and cayenne pepper mixed with 8 ounces of water.  I usually mix about 16 ounces at a time.  I drink it extremely fast so the cayenne doesn't get to me.  Some people say you should sip it, that would kill me.  

It is recommended that you drink 8-12 glasses daily.  I have made 6 glasses and only gotten through 5.  I had this challenge the last time too.  I just can't seem to drink 8 glasses of the lemonade daily.  I read somewhere that you really need to, but I don't want to push myself too far.

I had a headache throughout most of the day, which is not uncommon the first couple of days of the cleanse.  It got so bad at one point, I just needed to close my eyes for about 10 minutes and chill.  That's ok, though, since I worked 10 hours today and didn't really take a lunch break.  

My headache never subsided and I feel exhausted.  I just want to go to sleep right now.  I think I'm going to make the tea and go lay down with the TV on in my bedroom.  

I was taking note, this morning, of the fact that my hygiene preferences have changed.  I was washing with this organic Moroccan rose body wash, salt, body butter and oil realizing that my preference has turned to only organic since January and the more natural - the better.  Immediately after my first cleanse, I bought this tea tree oil deodorant and toothpaste - both are totally vegan and organic.  It makes me feel like I'm doing something right.  I'm making things better somehow... in my own small, maybe significant, way.  Maybe it's that I am just being kind to myself and that is speaking volumes to me.  

Ben is eating dinner now and that is a rough time.  It's comfortable to eat at home...

Time for tea and rest.  Day One - Done