Scattered

I am feeling really scattered and all over the place.  I took a few days off from work in order to clean the house and get things accomplished.  What's happened is that I began the process and once I got involved felt overwhelmed because there is SO MUCH that needs to get done and I have barely scratched the surface.  

Wednesday, I spent most of the day cleaning our bedroom.  I love our bedroom; it is decorated so beautifully and the colors are so soothing.  Our bedroom wasn't too bad off, but I did laundry in conjunction with the cleaning and I have a lot of laundry.  I'm not done yet.  I have too much clothing.  I can go a month or more without doing any laundry.  I could probably go a few months and never wear the same thing twice.  I would really love to get rid of all of the clothing and only hang onto a few things, but a lot of the pieces have memories woven into them.  Take for example a black & pink dress I have - I bought the dress 4-5 years ago.  It's super cute and sexy.  I wore it several times.  I bought a pink/black sweater to wear with it, but that was so badly stained, I had to get rid of it.  The dress is reminiscent of a pin-up or goth type dress.  I don't know were the hell I would wear it again.  I wore it to the theater and my brother/sister-in-law's wedding.  So for now, it sits.  Another example is Gwynne's suit.  I've been meaning to give it back to her for so long.  I borrowed it for something, it didn't fit - I've never worn it.  She doesn't need it (since she works in pj bottoms & tank tops) and has probably forgotten it's here.  So it sits... I just need to get rid of so much stuff and don't know where to begin.  I have a LOT more cleaning to do.  I don't see how it is all going to get done.  

Wednesday night, Rick and I went to see A Raisin in the Sun produced by Arizona Theatre Company.   It was a very good production, with superb acting.  Rick and I each had different take-aways.  I identified with the male characters in the production, recognizing that men have dreams and that sometimes they have difficulty following them because they are expected to "be" men and serve their duty to their household as the primary bread winner.  Rick identified more with the female characters and saw how the male character was initially acting selfishly due to his resentment of not being able to follow his dream.  Of course, the show goes beyond this.  It also has a lot to do with segregation, african american education/intellect, prejudice, class, etc.  It is based upon a true story, which I don't think either of us knew.  

Yesterday, I mostly spent the day out running errands.  Today, I am going to get a facial and then it's off to a hair appt.  I need to return a rental car and pick up Ben's car from the shop.  

I really just feel scattered.  It's obvious in this blog, you can read, plainly, my lack of focus.  I can't believe how much needs to get done in my life...